If only.

The lingering question kept me up.

2am, who do you love?

I wonder till I’m wide awake.

Now I’m pacing back and forth, wishing you were at my door.

This is me praying that this was the very first page, not where the storyline ends.

My thoughts will echo your name until I see you again.

Please don’t be in love with someone else, please don’t have somebody waiting on you.

I love you.

“In your eyes I see things i know I cannot touch, I know not to reach for them, I let them touch me. And I cherish these moments that we’re able to share, however fleeting they may be.”

I miss looking into your eyes.

I told you that I won’t write to you about how I feel anymore so I want to honour my word. Besides, you’ve got someone else in your life right now, wouldn’t matter as much to you anyways. 

It’s 6:54am, I haven’t slept, but I’m up. I’m up suddenly missing you. Every time this happens, I’m scared to realize how much I miss you. I haven’t been thinking about you for a while now, trying to concentrate on other things. But every time I do, the fact is that I miss you so, so much. 

I miss you so much I broke down and cried. Cried hard. Sigh.

I hope you’re doing well & I hope he’s treating you well.

It’s going to be so hard to see you again. 

Love, me.

Its been almost 10 days since we last talked. It feels like forever. Do you think of me? I really wonder. Are you afraid that you might lose me? Is that why you only told me that you miss me after I told you about her?

I don’t think my tender heart can take it. Is this a test? Should I just continue dreaming? It was a matter of time before this would happen. Sigh.

I’ve made up my mind,
Don’t need to think it over
If I’m wrong, I am right
Don’t need to look no further,
This ain’t lust
I know this is love
But, if I tell the world
I’ll never say enough
Cos it was not said to you
And that’s exactly what I need to do
If I end up with you

Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasin’ pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere
Or would it be a waste
Even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasin’ pavements
Even if it leads nowhere

I build myself up
And fly around in circles
Watin’ as my heart drops
And my back begins to tingle
Finally, could this be it?

Why do I feel so alive when you’re near?
There’s no way any hurt can get thru’
Longing to spend every moment of the day with you

Suddenly the wheels are in motion
And I I’m ready to sail any ocean
Suddenly I don’t need the answers
Cos I I’m ready to take all my chances with you

You can try to hide your feelings, but they won’t disappear just like that, and if they don’t go away, then there must be a reason why they’re there.